Dating with Social Anxiety pt. 2

Have you ever left out part of a story? I did. It cost me. It cost me a man, a man that I think is amazing. Now, I cannot get him off my mind. I told him what I wanted he respected it. R. was insistent on a dinner date. He thought it was strange that I do not like them. For me, I find it weird to eat while you are trying to get to know someone. Not to mention others in the restaurant being able to tell that it is the first date. R. agreed to go fishing and drink beer. I was excited. To be honest, I am slightly a hopeless romantic. Would R. kiss me? If so, how? R. seems like the type of guy that would say something for you to look like him then kiss you. I was looking forward to finding out. Unfortunately, that wouldn’t happen. R. stood me up.

I told R. a story but left out a detail. I left it out because I was scared of his reaction. For me, it was personal and a ton of emotion surrounding it. He said that he understood, but did he? Eventually, we were talking. I told him the part that I left out. He took it as a lie. Everyone hates being told lies. If you know me, you know that I am blunt, straightforward, and I really couldn’t care less about feelings. I care about R.’s though. If you know me, I don’t care what people think of me. He hasn’t been talking to me. I found out today it is because he thought I lied to him. All I want to do is cry. Now I feel embarrassed. I have no clue what to do. I wish I would fix it. Has my social anxiety made it difficult to read social cues? Here is my question for all of you. Is leaving out a details lying? Let me know in the comments.